Tuesday, December 28, 2010

RIP Toby (I LOVE you)

Well, the past week or 2 has been some of the worse weeks this year for me. Today, though was THE WORSE I had noticed a few days ago that my dog was missing and I thought he had jumped out a window or something. Not something I want to talk about now, but FYI he passed away. I have this feeling  that maybe his seizures he had a few months ago have something to do with it. It's weird though I found out today, and last night I had a dream that he was alive. I was playing with him, and he was happy, fine. Some dream that turned out to be.

My Toby and I. I LOVE YOU!


Toby

I hope Heaven is good to you!


Maybe by Sick Puppies-
Maybe I'm a dreamer
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should
Maybe I'm crazy
(Maybe I'm crazy)
Maybe I'm the only one
(Maybe I'm the only one)
Maybe I'm just out of touch
Maybe I've just had enough

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

Maybe it's hopeless
(Maybe it's hopeless)
Maybe I should just give up
(Maybe I should just give up)
What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

I heard this song the other day, and it fit perfect with the way my mood has been lately, and what with all the shit Ive been going through . Maybe, a change wouldn't be so bad. California sounds like a really good place to go right now. I have a friend that lives there whose been trying her hardest to get me to live with her. It would definitely be a change. Who knows maybe for the better?

Ashley

8 comments:

  1. I am so, so sorry for your lost! It's horrible losing a pet. You just wish they could have longer lives, you know? That they could live for as long as you do.

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  2. Yeah, I know it's not just him not being here anymore it's my whole situation surrounding him. I don't like people assuming that it was my fault. Toby meant more to me then anything or one and for people to question that love really REALLY sucks, and hurts.

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  3. Oh I am so sorry to hear this! You and your puppy were in my thoughts and I was really hoping you would find him safe and sound. He was an adorable puppy. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear this - pets are such a big part of the family.

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  5. Oh, I'm sorry to hear of your loss. My sincere condolences. --I live in Southern Cali ... I like it here.

    Best wishes with whatever you decide.

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  6. SR- Thanks so much.

    Sam- Very big part.

    Jinky-Thanks..yeah my friend lives in the San Jose area, and when I visited last year I loved it. It was beautiful.

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  7. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your dog pup and friend, Toby. I too love my dogs to death (we have a schnauzer and a big ole airedale terrier). I am so devestated when one passes, its embarrasing. However, I believe they do become part of the family. Its sad they don't have a longer life span. I hope you can find some solitude in the memories you have of your fur-friend.

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  8. trong cơ thể hắn. Toàn thân hắn run rẩy, kêu lên thảm thiết, từ giữa không trung ngã xuống bình đài, thân thể không ngừng co rúm, cuối cùng khí tuyệt bỏ mạng.

    Dần dần toàn bộ thân thể, huyết nhục mất hết, trở thành một bộ xương khô, trên người hắn, một đám du hồn vui sướng chui vào.

    Vương Lâm ánh mắt chợt lóe, tâm niệm khẽ nhúc nhích, du hồn bốn phía đồng loạt bay trở về, tiến vào trán Vương Lâm rồi biến mất.

    Lúc này, nam tử từ Cự Ma tộc kia cười ha hả, tiến lên vài bước, lớn tiếng nói:
    - Đạo hữu, vì cớ gì mà ngươi biến thành chật vật như vậy? Ngay cả Nguyên Anh kỳ tu sĩ cũng nổi lên lòng tham đối với ngươi.

    Vương Lâm liếc mắt nhìn người này một cái, nhẹ nhàng bâng quơ nói:
    - Tiên giới toái phiến sụp đổ.
    mu private cho thuê nhà trọ nhạc sàn cực mạnh tư vấn pháp luật qua điện thoại công ty luật tổng đài tư vấn pháp luật dịch vụ thành lập công ty
    Nam tử Cự Ma tộc lập tức ngẩn ra, hai mắt lộ ra vẻ kì dị, nói:
    - Đạo hữu trốn thoát từ sự sụp đổ của tiên giới toái phiến sao?
    Mới vừa nói xong, hắn liền cười khổ, nghĩ mình vừa nói lời vô nghĩa, vì thế ôm quyền nói:
    - Đạo hữu, tiên giới toái phiến sụp đổ, có thể chạy ra, kể cũng không là kẻ đầu đường xó

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